I don’t wanna go back to that place Where my fingernails scratch like razor blades On the pavement As I’m dragged back Into the darkness
I was revived I was out but now I’m slipping back
I don’t wanna feel all numb inside Cause you pump me with those pills To keep me high Lay that white sheet over my mind It doesn’t help my problem It just buys time
(dissociation​/​strobes of hope for the future)
Sweep the dirt off of the floor I look back there was more than before A bottomless problem that will always sustain A vicious mess that is hard to contain
Where do I dispose these feelings? Got to get them out there killing Sweep them under the rug right there!
The past is receding My minds bleeding pictures that attack me And I don’t like it Not one bit
A carcass lies upon the double yellow Stiff as a board with eyes like jello Rubber runs over him again and again Splitting him into two as it rips and rips A ton of put together metal crushes his skull As an animal he doesn’t deserve a proper burial
But even if he was pulled To the gravel side The buzzards would Swoop down to pick and pull And eat him alive And even if he was dead They would still claw the brains Right out of his head
The truth is here It’s here It’s clear It’s clear I know the truth Please dear Come here It’s clear It’s clear You live on the world The past is hung above I live on this place Where the present happens
The stars in space Blow up and fade away I see it in action One hundred thousand years I’ll see your reaction
Look up see lies I live in paradise now
Now you see it! So believe it! Now you see it! So please believe it!
I hope someday you will feel the pain You forced on me to make me go insane Your powers made me obey Now you’re dead I do not owe you anything
Up here there are none of your kind So I can finally rest and put you out of my mind One day I will have a loving guide To share this space with and to call mine
I guess no one I knew before was real I do believe I was tricked I feel as if this was all a big joke And now they are all at a round table Laughing at the past Sipping their high dollar tea A conscious effort to avoid me is Not the best feeling I hate this I guess for the remainder of my time I must come in with a silent face And a silent heart I shall move like a ghost traveling alone Unknown Because no one ever cared They are all to take and pick sides Not one is on mine This dark place is rising again The ground is breaking and I am falling in But this time I know my way out I have the map I just don’t want to go back Because the repercussions slice me Like a razor blade I told you that The emptiness it leaves The tiredness it brings The tears it weeps The hunger it feeds The wants turn to needs Mental status of your kids depreciates Cause of pictures they are forced to see Mother being hit Yelling obscenities Syringe left in a drunken arm The non-bios The split of their leaders Then the place that blew up Becomes way too much So bloody baths flow over And leave A stain
So where do we find Happiness all the time Let’s look
Somewhere in the aurora borealis Is where it begins Where does it end?
Let’s celebrate being alive We are the ones who survived There’s no worry in sight We can dance all night They used to say you can’t
Cat walk, reaaarr Ooh they're modeling the new Intergalactic wear Let’s look
They are oh so beautiful when they strut Iridescent clothing is what they’ve got You’ve got it gurl! Dylan, Hank, Macy, Michael, Kirk Let’s have some fun! Our friends are so enchanting We love them a lot Loving all this happiness That cannot be bought
Let’s do the voices here for Greyson
Back on our planet we blamed A group of people Ruining their whole civilization What’s that shit? The evil ones of course wanted More cash in their pockets So they played the power game And sent tanks across the ocean To extract greed from the ground To put in moving vehicles They tricked the blind Through mass communication
Do I need to close my heart? Close it up Because every time I open it It gets beaten up
The psychedelic gods were right The secrets were in the saucer
I lay under a digital oak tree Thinking about how life used to treat me I lay there with a smile cause I know I never have to go back there
I walk down a narrow pathway I look out and see a friend Take off and fly away Out into space This is life
I see a face It’s lookin’ at me Visually satisfying Who can it be?
Messing up the semantic encoding Cause my syntax is out of whack Sounding like blather Paradoxical encounter You’re a contradiction To my mothers nature Walls turn dubstep Moving pictures round in my head Turned off light switch I think I need a reset
Let’s go around again Undo me
Back to you I see you walking Your auora is that of some Supernatural force Headed towards me I see the glitter on your cheeks Neon colors in your hair Flowing everywhere Standing on a cartoon lawn You got that gloomillume thing going on So do I go in circles or do I go to you
I don’t know it’s just So hard to come so close To something so powerful It’s like you have this shield up But it’s mental it’s really invisible
You tell me Everything will be ok if I follow you You make me believe your lies and so And so I do but then you go You don’t understand what you do When you leave me in a darkened room A darkened room A dark, dark room by myself By myself
I’m recycled I’m used over and over again I can’t catch a break Why am I treated this way I don’t want to be recycled
You again are you lonely yet Where is your friend What do you want I don’t want to be sad Cause you’re confused what to do You don’t understand what you do When you leave me in a darkened room A darkened room A dark, dark room by myself By myself
You say I can’t go But you go I just want you to know That I went I don’t care what you say I just wanted to disappear And so I did
You won’t win
Tear down all these walls You’ve built around me I don’t like them They keep me in And you think you have All this power But you’ll soon find out You don’t have it
You’ll never win Even though you think you can You will never win You think you can No you just can’t You’ll never win No not with me
Lost in this world I’ll just hide, be unknown What if I found something new Something different and true I, I wait for you to come back From your place in your mind Where I left you I can’t find out how to find you
Losing it Losing it I’ll never fall apart I’m never coming back Cause I am broken
Seems like no one cares About the people That they pass along the way They don’t turn back To see how they are
Losing it Losing it I’ll never fall apart I’m never coming back Cause I am broken
Everyone stand clear I’m shooting you down So you better watch out I’m not coming back I’m going all the way So you better change your ways Or I’m not gonna stay
Today’s another day And I’m another way today I’ve changed, oh But I know you will Love me still if I Don’t change my life
Everyone standing near Is getting me down They always get me down Everything I knew I’ll throw it all away I don’t care what they say I’m gonna change my ways
Today’s another day And I’m another way today I’ve changed, oh And I know you will Love me still if I Don’t change my life
Where is the heart that I used to love so much Where am I going I want to see clearly I had my eyes shut for so long Now they’re peeling apart Because of the one who has guided me The right way
She smiles when the world sees her face The curtains close it goes away Because it’s never been quite the same Since it all changed on that day And all of these things she tries to shake Won’t leave me until I break
You have this hold on me And I don’t want to be Be set free No, No
I, oh I mean she is not well But she would never dare to tell You, that she hurts bad inside Showing her false sense of pride Look deep into her eyes I’m not good at telling lies
You have this hold on me And I don’t want to be Be set free No, No
Seeing all these planes fly Dropping bombs down from the sky As I look around I see dead bodies on the ground And I turn to you and say
Breathe me Take in the love I give you Hold me Like it’s the last time you do Tell me Every feeling you feel Show me That this is all so real Love me Because it’s all ending
Take my hand Walk me through this land That I don’t understand Lead me to A place with truth So I won’t lose my mind to you
I’m losing it already I’m falling I’m so heavy with lies I’m fighting to stay steady With all of these pain in my mind Fighting to stay steady With all of these tears held inside
Take me in Hold me close my friend And be the one who understands Don’t let me go Cause if go just know That I won’t be coming back And I don’t want that
I’m losing it already I’m falling I’m so heavy with lies I’m fighting to stay steady With all of these pain in my mind Fighting to stay steady With all of these tears held inside
It hurts less to leave Instead of being left My heart was on my sleeve My mind was on a shelf And dust was gathering And no one bought me So I sat alone I just sit alone
And now I’m wondering Just what I’m here to be And all this whispering Is making me think About your life And what you felt inside To make you want to leave
Run away They’re spotting you from a higher place Try to hide They’re watching you live your surveillance life Power and control They’ll take every little bit you hold They have secrets and they have lies They’re watching you live your surveillance life
You have freedom they say But you’re restricted from everything
Tapping into your mind Their suits lock down everything they find They inspect you and all your kind As you’re released from the assembly line
You have freedom they say But you’re restricted from everything
